19 March 2008,
i still cry till tonight
hello hello.
why cant ppl just like understand ma feelings??? why mush they hate me for ma action?? wat break up is a sin meh?? its going to be 3rd month of our break up just let me walk wit both leg why cant i move on?? sometimes i cried at my bed alone without ma moma noticing or anyone notice me why must i face this?? why do i cry each night for hyme when he dun even love me anymore.. he dont love me anymore why am i stressing out for hyme? why cant i move on?? i wanna move on & i know he want to move on .. instead he've already move on.. i've nvr tell anyone abt ma crying part cox once i tell people , they will sae tat im weak.. they sae i cant move on without hyme.. how to move on when i really love hyme how to move on when there's no on who can take gude care of me. & show me real true love???? i dun want this to happen to any of the girls out there. cox it really hurts.. even if u dislike me , i dun care cox im like a normal person who leave in the same world as you . you do with ur life & i'll do wit ma life as simple as tat . even if you are ma hater i still dun want this to happen to you or to me again especially ma friends iand ma sisters. once u've feel like how i am feeling now u will swollow 12 tablets of pills like i do and u just wish tat the next dae u wont be able to open ur eyes & see anyone in the world anymore. tats how i feel . i really give up on my hope i really cant stand the pressure. i really hope & wish tat i wont be able to open ma eyes the next dae. but i was warned & noted by ma SISTERS not to do those stupid stuff again not to give up.they sae there's a hope in everyone's life if tat sult do it to me she'll get it one dae. and if he've hurt me alort he'll feel like how i feel in the past. i cried and cried.. oni izzati & zu know why i cry why i still live. why i secretly took a look at hyme . i know im nt the one for him but i wanna wish hyme happiness study hard.why do you hate me ? what have i done to you?
go on boi. go on.. move on .. just go........
all i got to sae i good bye. take gude care of urself.. just move on without me & i MAY manage it . if i've found ma true lover. cox i oni can dream on dreamland but i still cant find ma dreamer..