30 July 2008,
went on just like that

ma dae went on just like normal.. but aidil just make me angry like gosh i dun know how to explain things in this situation..
well, lets rewind the dae back.. ma day started off with this.. i went to school like normal and the things is that im having ma english listening prelim . its like a normal dae and i was shocked when mdm wongs sae that we are having a suprise test.. well abt the boring & freaking topic that i dun know.. its not i dun know its i dun understand.. and the thing is the question is n level standard.. wtf?! then after school i buy some food and bring it to class as i was having ma english listening prelim.. the paper was quite ok. then zhi jie call ab, ab. then i look and sae what's wrong with ab then he sae its abdullah.. he play with ma father name. i ddnt accept it and i told him im nt hapie with it then aidil repeat what i told zhi jie.. i saw really hurt by his words and scold him told him not to disturb me already but he still did disturb me.. what wrong have i done to u people.. ?! hey we r classmates like for 4 years and u simply hurt me today.. imagine if u dun have any father and ur friends all make fun of ur father name.. when u actually wanted to let the situation go and the stressfulness u have feel when ur father left u since u were nine and now when u grow up u told urself that u wanna prove to ur father that ur mother have been taking good care of u since u were small.. since ur father left all 3 of u .. hey its unfair for me.. i wanted to prove to ma daddy that even though he ddnt know me by now even though he have not been missing me u still can move on with ur life like normal.. like normal kids... why would aidil do tis to me. ive help him alot.. and this is what i get ? its unfair... really.. just y cant u all understand ma situation.. i know u all dun know abt ma parents.. but plz even if u have or dun have a father or mother just dun play with other peoples daddy name.. u will never know abt their family background and u will always hurt their feeling at all times.. just disapointed with ma friends when they do this to me.. im always willing to forgive anyone even though how huge ur mistake u've made.. the mainthing is dun repeat it again..
all i know is to get out of the school as fast as i can..