26 August 2008,
kind of upseting...

i want to go to the kayaking trip.. and mom ddnt allow me to.. i dun know why but her reason she gave me was.. it's ranning season already and she always think negatively as like bad things will happen.. i know how to take care of maself.. i know she's woried. i can take care of maslef.as im goin with all ma mates with a teacher to guide... but still i wanna go. zuzu said that she'll try to call moma tonight and ask about the going part. and she sae she wanna tell moma to take care of me.. well.. in this situation, i would like to sae... IM FREAKING STRESS!!!!!!!!!!
and kinda upseting... i think i broke that someone heart by saying that i only like him as a friend not more than that.. we gt along in friendster and msn.. i though he just regard me the same as i did to him but eventually, NO, its nt... he tell me love those past daes.. i told him i oni regard him as a friend.. so we gt along again. and this time he told me he care and concernt .. tats what i need from a guy and i just gt to know him like for 10 daes only.. well.. that how the story started.. then i was so heavy bones i ddnt want to pick anyone's call. nor msges.. i even ignore it and wait till ma hp's last ring. then i cntue with ma work well, that mean i know. but that's all i could do.. i dun want to entertain guys like outsiders.. but tat was rafi.. azmi was the one who tell me love.
well he told me love again just now, i tell him that i couldn't affort to accept anyone at this moment. and exams are just next week.. its like less than 1 week. HELLO!! WAKE UP FARAH!! its difficult to be in this position. imagine.. someone keeps on calling u 24/7 asking u where u r whom u r with. talk shits like openly(open-minded).. hey i hate those kind of crab!
and the worse thing was... if u ddnt reply or answer his call he irritates u! tat much!!!!!!
harsh.. azmi told me that he like me. and i told him that.. well.. i ddnt mean to break ur heart.. im am sooo sory.....
for those things being done by me.. i just have the intention to make more friends but i dun know that this kind of situation would happen..
once again i'm sorry
*bestie amir, dun get upset abt u gerl.. mby she's bz or somehow sleep early or perpaid low.. who knows.. dun think negatively,, try to call her instead.. coz negative thinking might effect ur relationship.. and also it gives bad health to ur relationship.. nt only ur relationship indeed in every relationship.. i think im gonna top up tomoro and i'll text u k amir?? nt to worry.. i here bestie..(:
cheer up.. i know how u feel in the inside.. coz ive been hurt, like always.. i myself are facing the problems with a conciquences... in fact everone are.. i hope u face ur problem with a solution.. every problems that are facing u, u have to face it with a solution its like math, they give u problem u solve it with a solution.. dun stress urself up as u , urself know that the N's are just freaking right at the corner. cheer up bestie*
bestie are loved!!
**im nt allowed to go to the kayaking... gonna mish ma friends:( **