02 March 2009,
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like what people say, before you want to go to the higher level you will need to go through shits and hells.. and that is what i am facing.. for those who know me very well i cant control my temper.. not always but sometime only at times when I'm stressed out. i know i was the one who show my temper to you but i couldn't help myself. even i myself am disappointed cause you are the greatest friend i ever had and i show you my attitude. i know this shouldn't happen.. i am sorry.. i admit i cry after i read your post. which ever blog hopper read your post know the situation that the issue is i was in wrong. in fact, i was always wrong.. there's nothing i did s perfect or correct. but seriously I've made a video for you and hope you bring it in your life. it's just a small token that prove you are my truely my friend..
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
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daddy... daddy.. imy... imy... *sob* why cant i stop crying after I've say sorry to my dearly Ayn when she already accept my apologies. OK still i know i was wrong.. she's a nice girl how could i make this to her? AYN!!! I'M SORRY:(
back to daddy..
brother suddenly pop out a question about HIM, daddy. i was so shocked when he talk about him.. i quickly ran to my room and mummy saw me crying like usual she come in to bring me some drinks or anything and kiss my forehead to make me feel better. i smile and say sorry mother.. she smile wide at me and say i know u miss him.. too bad i hate him..
well mom, you might be the best mother though you don't really spent time with me accept Sunday. but Sunday i couldn't spent my time with her anymore..
I've moved to wallet shop cck and after my work I'll head down to dance class..
kak ain passed me her duties.. she's quiting she called me and ask me to be in charge of the dancers and asked me to teach them the steps.. i told her no i cant take your place i don't have the confident to do that .. she gives me support and say i can.. i felt sorry about her.. i was sorry i show my attitude to her last Saturday at kampung melayu cause she's being bossy towards me..
i cant do it!!!
i cant instruct them.. i have no confidence at all!!!
beloved besties..
im sorry
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no maybe not now.. i cant fall in love when thing's aren't going well.. and i fall for malay, muslims or islam only(i know its the same) .. and stop pressing me questions regarding about love.. im not prepared to fall yet.. sorry if i turn you down.. seriously i dont want to fall in love.. im slacking on my studies i dont know why.. that's why i dont want to fall in love now i dont want it to affect my studies.. i dont want you to ask any question regarding love, admire, crush etc.
sorry